Confused
I am so confused right now. I don't know where to study- here in Delaware or in the Philippines..
When we had a family reunion last Christmas in California my aunt offered me to study here in the States. She said she was gonna sponsor my schooling and all so my parents allowed me. But when we saw how expensive the international student tuition fee was, I just decided to study in the Philippines. So I am currently enrolled at Assumption College (Accounting). I've already paid my tuition fee for the semester and I've already bought 4 pairs of uniform ('cause I don't have classes every Wednesday). But now my aunt wants me to study here again, because the college's director is willing to give me a scholarship to study (Nursing) here. We just have to pay my first year's tuition and if I'm doing good in school, my scholarship will be granted. I am now scheduled to take the placement test on Tuesday. I called my mom 2 days ago and told her about it. She wasn't exactly happy/excited about it. She said she'll gonna miss me if I study here. She even said I have to come home (in the PI) every summer, christmas and semestral break. haha! That's crazy.. :Þ She also asked me about my 18th birthday.. she was like "Pano yung debut mo? Uuwi ka dito?!" hehe.. I know my mom's really excited for my debut..
If you ask me, it's really better to study nursing here than in the PI because you could be a registered nurse in just 3 years(if you don't fail/drop any subject) and in the PI it'll take you about 5 years to become one. And here, I don't need to learn Rizal anymore. I don't have to take Theology anymore. I just have to take the really IMPORTANT subjects. No more P.E... No more community service. I don't have to waste my time studying things that are not really related to my course. But even if I study here I don't think I'll be completely happy because my mom's far from me. :( I don't wanna be away from my mom 'cause I always depend on her. I don't think I can live and study without her.. Now I don't know what to do..
If I decide to study here, I have to be back this August to prepare for the fall semester but if I didn't do well in my placement test, I have to be back in June to take summer classes. Aaarrrgghhh.. I really don't know what to do...
Anyways, I wasn't feeling good this afternoon because of cramps so my cousin gave me tylenol. She told me to take two but I was kind of hesitant to take two for the fear of being "high" but she's a nurse.. she should know that.. so I just followed her.. haha..
We had dinner at Dover Downs Hotel. It was a buffet. But I only ate a little like I always do.. I've already stopped from eating rice since April 2 but I've only lost 2 pounds since then.. tsss.. I guess I also have to stop eating chocolates and drinking sodas now to lose more weight.. haaayy.. I wanna be skinny..


